As the title suggests.
I have been away, and now I'm back.
I am still fat, unhappy with my life and in recovery (read: at the moment only physical)...
It sucks so hard that I lost everything I worked for! My figure, my "self reflected prestige" and my determination to loose the weight I've always wanted, on the road to a life without an ED.
I miss it... I miss my bulimia... Does that sound far out or what? I really miss the "something" I could cling on to whenever things turned on me (and boy do they at the moment) instead of actually dealing with the feelings and all that shit!
I don't need feelings like anger/depression/sadness/loneliness/despair/hopelessness or abandons in my life! Just give me 20 minutes in the ladies-room and all of those feelings will be washed away -literally down the drain! Until next time.
Well enough about my bitching! I fell over this amazing video at Boohyouwhore.com (heh, I needed something to cheer me up)
It's gorgous... That girl is my new icon in this godforsaken world...
Buckets full of love to you my dear ones