I am NOT giving up on my skinny dream!
It's my last day in group therapy next Monday, and honestly? I'm really excited! Or my ED is... Whatever! I really like that I can look forward to do whatever I want without limitations from The Milestone (ED recovery centre) but I also know how this sounds...
But... Perhaps I'm just not "there" yet. I don't think I'm ready to give up my eating disorder...
I am, however, goanna give up being fat.
I'm 171cm tall and weighed in this morning at 70kg and I look FAT! I know it, and everybody else knows it too.
This summer I'm goanna look freaking slammin' in a bikini and not cringe every time it time for a poolpose! I am goanna smile every time I walk by a reflection and wink at myself! I'm goanna wear all the wonderful short dresses and be beautiful! AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I AM GOANNA FEEL GOOD IN MY OWN SKIN!
Okay... So I got the pep talk in place -now I just need a plan...
I thourght about joining "The Skinny Patch" but I kinda like making my own. That's a part of the "fun" for me (yes I'm perhaps funny that way).
I'll post it in the next post girls : )
Love Cille
I really wonder why they made you balloon up to 70 kilos at 171cm....I mean surely recovery centres should aim for a healthy NORMAL weight and not use "let's make her fat and everyting's fine"-road....O.o
SvarSletSending you lots of support Cillie,you can do it and d'you know what?
We will BOTH look totally smashing in our bikinis in summer!
ew, recovery centers don't sound fun. i thought the point was to teach you how to be healthy...oh, the irony.
SvarSletyou are prolly still beautiful no matter what you weigh. you will look amazing this summer i know it.
♥ dorian
I'm glad you sound so excited! (:
SvarSlet