Sun and grass

Good morning girls.

So thanks for your great advice on the last post, I would love if you had some more!
But both the raw food diet and the lemonade diet is really hard to maintain with Thomas in the house. He would immediately be on my case about how I'm having a setback in recovery (which he would be right about...) and force me back in group. And, and, and, I haven't quite built up the discipline to go on a liquid diet yet.

Yesterdays food was a mess:
10.30 = Yoghurt (100g)
12.00 = piece of bred w salmon
15.30 = Bun w light cheese
19.00 = Pasta (in cream sours)
20.00 = Cherries strawberries + 2 mini muffins
- No purge 'cause of Thomas

It's a bit sad looking at it now... Not thaaat much food but a lot of crappy calories... Damn.

Today I started with 200g of yoghurt (160cal + 2,6g fat) and a cigarette (+1L of water).
So started good!! Weeh! For once!!!
I'm going to my mom's later and I guess we're going shopping. Looking forward to it!

Bring on the DIET TIPS girls!!! I adore them all!




Love Cille

Good morning people


I have a ton of things to do today and no idea how I'm goanna do them all!
But First and for most, I would like to welcome all the new followers who has joined the page the past months! Hello! And apologize for my crappy mood (which properly has reflected in my posts) and the lack of posts in general! Sorry!

I have been joggling some thoughts on how I can lose all my floppy tummy/thigh fat in time of Roskilde Festival (tree weeks tops) without driving myself insane!
I have to eat and I have to have time for life. Those are my only criterias.
Does it make me sound like I'm not dedicated to loosing weight, or is it just me? I mean everybody is asking the question "how do I loose weight?" and the answer is pretty simple -don't eat... But I CAN'T not eat for tree weeks, it would make me loose my mind! And besides I would die of binging.

I'm planning to make a beautiful mix of diet, diet pills and exercise. (Please dear god I can keep this from Thomas until I'm done!!)

Diet: ?
Pills: ? (Lipo Femme, Anoretix -yes it's really called that, Phentermine, Therma power, Xenical, Acomplia and/or Reductil) These are just some of the pills I have been researching.
Supplements: Bio C.L.A. + T, Weighlevel
Exercise: 4x7 days


My question to you guys is now:
What diet have worked best for you?
And/or have you experience with diet pill and which was the best?
Do you know any of the pills I have listed? DO they work?





Lots of love
Cille

Fixed NOTHING?!

God... Why? I can't fix that stupid piece of crap!!!! Arh!! Stupid son of a bitch! Fuck! ARG!
Please help if you know how!


Sight. Woke up late -really late. It was already passed noon. I went to the gym for one hour. I was so, sooo sore in all my mussels from yesterdays workout -but never the less I managed to complete most of the program in that hour. I came home to my mother and she made me a big salad.
Other than that I ate: 2 mandarins, 1 orange, 3 pieces of wholegrain homemade bread with some butter (sorry -I slipped), 50g of raw nuts, cheese (again sorry) and that was it.

I feel okay about what I ate and how much fat I burned. Well… Not completely satisfied, but you know… I just got hit with a terrifying epiphany!! STAY AWAY FROM SALT!! I always knew that salt binds water and therefore holds the water weight, but I never knew just how dangerous salt is for your body! Listen to this; the Danish eats the doubled amount of salt of what good for them!! Table salt destroys your ability to burn fat!! of course normal salt in non-processed foods don’t do that. Example veggies, fruits, raw nuts, mushrooms and so on. But the salt in fast food, pasta, rice, bread and everything we “cook” is filled with unhealthy salt?! I am goanna stay away from salt from now on. Not all salts in the world though, as that would pretty much lead me to my death, but all the unhealthy crap we fill our bodies with!

No more seasoning with table salt! No more pasta, rice and bread since they are stuffed with carbohydrates anyway.

Jep so that’s the plan.

Rid all that gross salt from my body and load myself up with pure healthy stuff instead.

Love Cille

Hm.

WTF? Something is very wrong on the blog? The sidebar is fucking up?! Sorry for the mess!
Do any of you guys know the problem and how to fix it?

A bunch of yesterdays…

Sorry for not uploading for a week or so, but I’m currently in a state of utterly suffering!! Heh, I’m sick with the flu, and HATE it! The only good thing about it; is I can’t eat anything but soup because of the pain. So I’m loosing weight rapidly (goanna gain it when I’m fit again, so I’m not excided).



My boyfriend is going to China for a month on Monday. Business. I miss him already. And I’m scared. He makes me feel safe and like everything is goanna be okay, and now he’s leaving. I want to cry and cling on to his leg, like a child, so he can’t leave. The way I always did when my dad was about to go on a longer business trip… I know it’s childish to get so upset over one small month, but I… I just can’t function without him. Hm. At least I loose weight when I’m miserable so that’s somewhat a plus.





God. I feel like crap. I haven’t eaten anything in tree days (soup, but that’s just hot water with veggies and salt) and I have no appetite at all! I’m bored!!

What do you guys do when you’r sick?

Love Cille <3

What do you do?

Please tell me how you guys num the hunger pains!! I mean without eating that is hehe :)

I drink water, exercise, eat icecubes and a lot or other stuff! But what is your key to get through the day? Please share!

Love you beauties ;)

Cille

Behinde closed doors. . .

Well, I am going to tell you how I do things. And NOT because I want to be some kind of thinspo to you guys or anything in that way -but simply because I (personally) "like" to read about how other bulimics do it. It's some kind of proff that I am not going completly mental and that Im not alone with this problem.

My rotine starts with eating. I ate dinner today, rost beef with potatos and sauce.. A BIG nono in my book (at least if I decided that I wasn't going to eat that day). After I had INHAILED my food I tried really hard to keep it down, for the sake of my family, but I failed. Horrorbly. I went to the bathroom. Locked the door. Turned the water on in the shower. Took off my dress so I wouldn't get it dirty and pulled my hair back. I stood leaned over the toilet and puked for about 15minuts or so, and gosh... That hurt! I waited WAY to long with getting rid of it all, so the acid burned all the way. AW! Fucking shit...

I was done, unnoticed and I felt my heart racing in my chest. Nicest feeling all day...

I didn't get it all, but at least 2/3 I suppose.

Gez, I have no idea how to stop! I physically felt sick when I was done eating!! I just couldn't stand the thought of keeping it in.

Sorry guys, I hope you NEVER have to feel like this, and if you already do... Get help. God, I am such a hipocrite (spelled?)!

Love Cille

P.s. spelling control is down, sorry ;)

P.p.s. Thanks for all your comment!! I adore when you guys post a little something for me to read :) :)

You make my day :)

What do you think?

I feel like, when I look at my blog, that something is missing. My language is a little childish, the layout is somehow dull and the posts are shallow and flat out boring!

Do you find it boring too? And if so, what can I do to make this blog better and more appealing?

Love Cille