søndag den 1. november 2009

Wrap me in cotton

Trying to stay sane proved to be a harder job than I expected. My sanity is hanging by the thread. Had a blackout today -don’t know what caused it… The room suddenly seemed so big and cold. First blurry, then black. And then I was out. When came to my senses I was laying on the floor and had a big bump on my forehead. Aw.

I told Thomas off… Yelled and told him to mind his own business. That was really shitty of me ‘cause he hadn’t done anything wrong! Sorry Thomsen… I’m just over my edge.

Cut myself in the shower… My left upper-inner thigh… And I did it on purpose. I slashed the blade right across the skin and saw the red pearls form from the cut. Saw the blood run down my leg and blend with the hot water on the floor… I felt so much better in that second.
I weigh 127,34lbs today

3 kommentarer:

  1. Sounds like you're having quite a rough time. Just hang in there... You'll be much happiere once you'd reach your goal.

    Lose weight, keep your mind on food insted of your boyfriend and remember that you have 30 followers covering your back :)



  2. I know that feeling when you cut yourself. You'll get to your goal don't worry. Try to find things to fill your days so that you don't have to think about it. Keep busy.

  3. Hey Christine! Thanks for your support! You're one of my first followers, thanks, where have you been lately? And whats going on with your blog?

    Love Cille