onsdag den 14. oktober 2009

pic's of me.....


So help me god I'm so fat.... I have like fat hipbones? How can that even be possible? Fat fat fat! I'm feeling low today. Low and fat! I feel wrong and dirty, it's hard to explain, but I feel really wrong in my body today... I have like the hugest ribcage... And yes I'm sucking it all in... I had to stop myself photoshopping the entire shit... God, I hate it. I feel disgusted even putting this up, but it's only fair you guys know the truth. I AM FAT! Don't pay any attention to my great pieces of advice, 'cause if they worked I wouldn't look like this...
I'm just sad Thomas is leaving. Planning a binge.
I don't even give a damn about spelling right now... Sigh.
Oh, by the way, The Milestone just called. I'm goanna go into treatment in two FREAKING months?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??! WTF? How did that happen? Oh, a paperwork error? Yes we told you 10 months but now its like two-tree!!! Shit, I'm screwed sideways!!

4 kommentarer:

  1. What are you going into treatment for?

  2. You are definitely NOT fat. Look at those pretty collarbones! It's okay if you aren't happy with your stomach and hips...You know that eventually they'll be breathtaking.

    I'm sorry about the treatment. Binging won't help you feel better, though.

    Wishing you all the best,

  3. That's amazing that you can get treatment even if you're not rich or underweight, just if you need and want it. That's a great system. I hope you get better. Look on the upside - if you were anorexic, there would be no way to get around the fact that you would need to gain weight to get better. Being bulimic pretty much makes you gain weight, so in treatment, you may actually lose weight, and they may not even care, as long as you aren't throwing up or starving to do so, but your body's just doing it naturally.

    I wish you the best, dear. Please be at peace, don't be anxious. Though I KNOW that's easier said than done.

  4. I'm fatter.
    At least you're brave enough to post pics.
    You're a beautiful girl!