When I came home the clock was about 12.30 and my mom was sitting in the kitchen and eating fruit. She was a bit surprised to see me but when she asked what the matter was, I just broke down in tears. We talked a bit about my mood, and she asked what was bringing me down. I didn’t have the guts to reveal my troubles just yet, so I answered –“I have no idea…” That was really a stupid thing to say. She said that it could be “The Pill’s” fault and made me promise that I would go to the doctor and ask. Well, that doesn’t fit with my diet plans. If the doctor makes a total check, I will get the it-isn’t-a-smart-way-to-lose-weight-speech… Sigh. I hate those.
Anyway, me and my mom decided to take a walk and talk about stuff. We don’t do that as often (I just got a baby-sister) anymore.
But as we walked, my stomach growled loudly. “Honey, do you wanna grab something to eat? What about sushi, my treat!” I really wanted sushi but I was almost too hungry to eat. I knew that the second the plate would be in front of me I would just swallow everything, and… Well, sushi is too expensive to just swallow.
“Ehm. What about something a little faster mom?” She looked at me and smiled.
“What about MD? Hn? It is cheap and fast, and lets be bad, just for once?” Sigh.
I broke. I broke, and I ate everything on my plate. You must understand something befor I tell you what did next though -I don’t like to make myself sick, and I don’t do it twice a day or something crazy like that… But yesterday I purged. I was just so disgusted with myself that I couldn’t hold that shit in.
Afterwards me and my mom walked and shopped in about 3 hours and I am sure everything I ate (I had only eaten that Mac Donald’s meal, and nothing the rest og the day) is gone.
Gez, I feel so good that I just got rid of all that toxic crap I ate!
Today I have had a cup of green tea, one apple and half a pear so far. Oh and water! Hehe.
I am so proud of myself, I don’t even feel hungry, and by the way – I lost 2 pounds this morning ;)
It sure is a good day to be thin!